i am just one frustrated old woman. when did it all go wrong?
why do i feel so pained?
my life is pretty great, my self confidence is shot to >>>>.
my life is not complete, but putting a finger
on what is missing is difficult. oh well, i've not killed myself
yet, probly won't by now anyway.
i might miss out on something, just around the corner.
i just want help.
i want acceptance that i am not a crazy old biddie, just different.
i cry alot. so what? i have emotions.
i can be
-happy
-joyful
-excited
-thrilled
-scared
-sexy (yeh even at 48 i'm not giving that one up.) although
i could use less of the fat and more of the firm. but alas,
where could i fit in the time for fitness.
it feels like i have corrosion on a wiring and
am not getting the connection in my brain.
wiring?
could it be the way i was wired as a child?
sure it was. wiring and old habits.
annie let's face it, you need an overhaul.
hoping this site gives me some insite.
i need follow thru. i start, but sometimes don't quite finish the race.
i love dogs.
well let the journey begin.
oh i am now a non smoker a person who does not smoke
and that makes
me cry alot too. 5-6 days now.not crying, being a non smoker.
one of them people.
for a depressed person, giving up something that has been there through the good and bad doesn't feel like a positive thing to do.
but i know and good and bad of nicotine, enough to
want to quit. better for my body.
hea, maybe all that crying was one way of cleaning myself out.
oh well, must drink plenty of fluids to replinish
those tears.
i need friends.
i need hope.
i need support.
i need guidence.
i need to learn to spell.
[i]wiring?[/i]
