Hi, yeah i can relate!!!
I hope you are getting some other help too? For me, its meds plus books, plus tactics a psychologist taught me. Plus some online stuff. Also i am getting better at realising i have physical pain and treating that is a good idea too.
One thing that helps for me, is to prioritise, some times people say write a list...yeah right... ok, having had my grump i write a list BUT
it is of the things i already did today! and i give myself points for staying alive too.
I don't know your situation... but if you have not yet SEE A DOCTOR. If you have seen a doctor and are not comfortable asking questions get another doctor. Getting medications can help in a big big way. If you have not had some form of "talk" therapy get your doctor to suggest people. If you have tried these and they did not work for you...then you need to try a different sort of both...its like getting a dress made - you have to try it on several times before it is just right.( mum made me a dress once - i remember that bit)
OHh yeah!!! yr doctor SHOULD run some basic screeing tests (yes again!) to see if you have iron defiency etc. etc.
Most days i can't do hope...but i sure can do stubborn (it keeps me alive)
wishing comfort to you.
rosethorn
