This has been my problem my whole life. My mom was into self help books and seminaars and would talk talk talk, but rarely follow through, not that she didn't try. She did, it just didn't work as far as sparing me from emotional abuse. So I've known and recognized what my core issues, beliefs are, but have never gotten past just being mad at her for making me this way. I have had a few that have gone away as long as Im not around her, but still, working with CBT, trying to change my reactions to the issues I've been in therapy for three years with this new therapist and working with CBT. Still feel like a 9 yo girl when she does her usual crap. I don't want to feel this way any more, now my daughters severe depression is reminding me how I felt in my teen years. The only difference is that now I am able to compartmentalize things more so they are as over whelming. When it is overwhelming then I have a panic attack. I just want to be normal, not damaged.
