I too know how hard it is to make the choice of putting down an animal. I had to put down my 13 year old Weimaraner due to cushings disease. It is a disease of the pituatary gland that causes constant hunger, thirst and then wetting all over the place. The medicine cost me like $175 a month and I did it for like 5 months but she got so fat that she couldn't even walk anymore. The vet said she was suffering and that with her age this was the best to put her out of her misery. I am very sorry for your loss. It will get better with time, believe me. I didn't think it would but I know in my heart I made the right decision. Hang in there and just realize that your cat is happy now and no longer suffering!
Take some time to relax yourself and to grieve. You did the right thing and helped the dear animals suffering. You have gone through a traumatic situation, so take some time to refocus as well.
I introduced myself awhile ago. I put down my cat this past Saturday, like I was writing about earlier. It was the hardest thing I've ever done.
My boyfriend didn't want me to be there for it because he felt it would be too traumatic, but I felt I really had to. I couldn't just let him die alone.
So I held him as he was put down. I feel absolutely devastated by it. I can't stop crying. I feel like I'm walking around like a zombie. I don't
want to eat, as I feel sick to my stomach. I don't want to get out of bed. I feel so angry at myself for putting him down. He was very ill, but I
still feel so badly. I hope that eventually the pain will lessen because right now it feels intolerable.