Thanks for reply. I actually studied Microbiology at University but ended up in a management job as I needed at least a Masters to get a good job in research and I HAD to move away from my parents and this pays the bills. I honestly don't know what my ideal job would be. I love art, nature, organising things, being creative.
I phoned my doctor yesterday and told him about the side effects. He asked me to hang in there a few more days and if they are still bad, I should come back and see him.
Major stresses? My relationship with my mother is very bad. My job sucks. My husband cheated on me and I find it a bit hard to let go and trust him like I used to.....
I needed to get something off my chest. I am feeling really miserable today. I have changed over to my new pills (Wellbutran) but obviously it will take a while before they start making me feel better. I have always been a fighter in life, when I am presented with a challenge, I fight my way through. I just feel exhausted of fighting everything. I feel like I don't have strength left to fight. I have to remind myself of my responsibilities constantly because my desire to run away from it all is so overwhelming. At this stage, I am just taking one day at a time. I have found it useful to write down how I felt doing certain activities- it releases some of the stuff I bottle up inside. I just feel like my life has no direction. I feel completely lost and no-one seems to be able to help me. People at work are commenting that I am not doing my best anymore. How can I give my best if everything seems so pointless?
