I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I truely am. I think the others pretty much said all the importnat things, so I won't repeat them. But I did want to come here to say that you are in fact not alone and we are all here to support you through this. Grief is a tough process but you will be ok. As for your grandfather having cancer I empathize with you very much. Feel free to come here and post and vent with us anytime.
I am sorry to hear about your losses and can see where you might feel overwhelmed with all the emotions. As Mom of 3 said please allow yourself to grieve, it is normal and grieving will be different for each person- there are 5 stages of grief. We don't necessarily go through the stages in order nor stay any certain length of time. From an experience of mine (when I was depressed) it was important to me to recognize what I was feeling (the grief part) and realize that it is not part of the depression. I hope this helps you. Those five stages (remember, no particular order) are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
I hope this helps. You'll be in my thoughts (and prayers).
Like mom of 3 said, you are not alone. I'm sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time, and I am sorry for you losses. Please continue to work through the sessions, and utilize the tools and resources that are available to you through this site. You will get there, and we're here to support and encourage you every step of the way.
Stay close, and keep us posted on how you are doing,
I'm sorry to hear about your losses. Death always takes a toll, even for those who do not battle depression. The fact that you're having some problems with all of this hitting at once is nothing to be ashamed of. Your depression does make it tougher, challenging your negative thoughts when you're already down is hard. Try to give yourself a break and don't despair. Allow yourself to be sad for your losses, because they are sad. You may be angry because death reminds us that we don't have control, even for those we care about. Grieving is part of life and normal, and you should grieve. The difficult part for me is when I tend to lump other things into the grief and call it grief. This means I begin to lose sight of what is grief and what is my depression. This is where I begin shut down mode, not good, but at least I'm aware now. I think you're aware now too or you wouldn't have posted. Try, I know it's hard, but try to think of your depression issues as separate from your grief, challenge your negative thoughts where you are able. Try talking to someone, counselor, clergy, friend, or at least post here with what's on your mind. I find writing things out to be helpful, do you keep a journal?
Just want to say that I understand where you are and that you are not alone. Keep us posted!
I have been working thru my depression for what seems like a long time now. At least 6 months. But I've had to deal with death so much since June that I am right back where I started from. I am also having to deal with knowing that my grandpa is dying of cancer to. So I don't know if getting out of depression will be possible right now. I am dealing with so much it's really overwhelming. I hope to someday feel like this dark blanket that is covering me is gone. I will continue on with my weekly sessions and see if it helps. Only time will tell at this point.
