Mom of 3, I see that you like to read too. I haven't been able to since the depression set in.....can you? When I do read I don't retain what I read. It works with my job, because I only need to read snippets of stuff, mostly talk and then type what I talk to consumers about. But I wish I could read a book again! I think I miss it and my long baths reading them the most! I try to read at one point I improved to read one novel! I celebrated! I'd like to read something in my career field, it just doesn't work like that anymore. That isn't a negative core belief, that is reality right now. I keep trying! Almost everyday!
You had to know I'd reply to this! I understand totally. I don't stick to a set time frame on the sessions. I stay where I am until I get a handle on something and then move on. I am stuck on challenging my core values, as you already know. I haven't felt like I could move on yet because I feel that I'm really bad at this. What is at my core is very negative and I'm not someone who would sit in front of a mirror and do a daily affirmation. To me this seems corny. I need to have some proof of what I'm saying, so challenging must work for me.
If you feel overwhelmed then stay where you are until you can digest and feel comfortable again. It must also work with your schedule - sometimes I don't start another session because I can't or don't have the time to focus on it. You are doing what you are able to do and that's enough, we progress as we are able.
okay, I printed Session 5 today. I have been working on Session 4 for a couple or three weeks. I had difficulty focusing and concentrating enough to do that. Difficulty reading and comprehending everything I needed to be doing. I feel like/think I am overwhelmed. I have difficulty deciding what to do. I don't know if I have "it" together enough to move forward yet! Should I stop? Will that make my reading comprehension and focusing improve? Will it help me make better decisions about what I am doing and scheduling time to do all the activities each day.
I feel a sense of accomplishment getting out bed in the morning, getting dressed, working for 8 hours and coming home - usually stopping by the computer for e-mail and The Depression Center and going to bed. Sometimes I don't but most days I do. Sometimes I wake up before bedtime; take a break from sleeping and go back to bed at bedtime. I spend alot of time in bed on the weekends. Well, I've said it before in other threads, my son helps take care of the bills and housekeeping, I've got someone that mows the yard. I seem to be able to spend 10 hours a day "functional" at best.
So how does one "move on" with such poor focus, concentration, comprehension, attention-span, decision-making?
