Hi, I am new to this web site but I am not new to depression and not new to it's devastating effect on my relationships. I have been married twice and lost both those marriages. All be it both of my wives also struggled with depression as well. The stress of what it takes to function as a married couple seems to be more than I can cope with and my depression becomes so much more very more severe than when I am alone. I say this as I have been living and functioning rather well for4 years and then last year I met and fell in love and got married again and now I have been declining ever since into deeper depression again. The stress of what is involved in making a relationship work, resolving conflict, adjusting to change, and so forth seems to just drain me. I am feeling so insane that I just want to leave. In my previous marriages it was my wives who did the leaving, I did not want them to leave, their leaving devastated me, they needed to leave for their own self preservation. Now I feel I need to leave for my self preservation.