It's good to see that you can look back at this last episode and draw strength and positivity from it. You are right that it is probably a good idea to minimize the amount of medications you are on at the moment.
Wildcat, I think it is great that you are able to reflect and put things in perspective as well as prepare for the future. Have you identified triggers? Way to go!
now that i am back to a normal me I can look back at last week it was something. I have to get excel to chart these episodes and see if they are becoming more spaced in time ... and consider them with my cycles and my sleep (darn week-ends).
I think I understand why some bipo, just accept the fact that there will be times when moods escape the meds and live through the period. It is not easy to think straight when I've crashed and I have no one who can take responsibility for me from the outside - you are ... take this ...- I am not sure I want to be be more drugged than i am now in any case. Also, I cannot find my doctor in a short period of time to get that instant help... until I know more about myself and can do things on my own.
Also, I have read the stories of many people and there is a trade for many. THere are less of those sparks of 'hey I got it' I understand, I have an Idea!!!! I have had a lot less and I guess the boredom has been getting on my nerves. There is no understanding of how the light moved through space, the atmosphere, the window, my room and eye and to my brain anymore. A lot less travels ... and more meds would probably just cut what is left.
So, now that the panic has subsided and I can think clearly. I am probably best just talking about what I have now and looking at the patterns I am living with. Now I can remember this next episode and keep calm I think I will have a less miserable time!
it was something. I have to get excel to chart these episodes and see if they are becoming more spaced in time ... and consider them with my cycles and my sleep (darn week-ends). 
