Hey there,
Wow, Rose306, I can't say I've ever been called a Hypochondriac, but you know, you're right...you actually blew me away, maybe I needed that. I looked up on the internet hypochondriac and read about it and it was me, but I find that when things are ok, I'm ok when I have an "itch", but when I'm down or axious about other things, that's when I begin to worry...does any of that make sense? I had a Dad that passed away when I was a kid, I certainly wasn't expecting that to happen, I hit the "brick wall" of reality, and I dealt with his dealth 7 years later...I think this is where it stems from..."being caught off guard when he died and not ready for it", so I overcompensate and I jump the other way in my reactions. It's that "trust" thing.
Thanks Wildcat, I know, motivation is the key. The past 3 days, we took our dog out for a good hour and a half walk, I felt so much better, but getting there, sometimes is an effort. You're right, Breanne, distraction is another key. You really have to make yourself do it and remember how good it makes you feel once you're done.
I have spoken to a counsellor regarding this, I thought I had dealt with it through EMDR, maybe not completely. My doctor did put me on a low dose of antidepressants, but I decided to go off them about 6 months ago, because things seemed ok and I was "healthy" in dealing with things, even before Christmas, I was ok, there's got to be a trigger in there, somewhere.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to whine and I guess it sounded like it in my first post. I'll get there. But thanks for your help, I do appreciate your help.