Sounds like you are going through a rough time right now. On the bright side, it seems like you are making a good effort to try and find a new job. They say on average, it takes at least 3 months to find a new job or to get a lead on a job, so hang in there and keep at it. Your happiness is what matters, and should come first
I cannot tell you that the night shift will be okay, you will find old friends and your husband learned his lessons...
All I can do is help you to try to stay in the here and now. Take each day one at a time. While you are on nite-shife can you afford to work one day less? and have tat day to do all you busy stuff and spend the week-end with your husband?
Can you count-down to a pleasant something you and hubby will be able to afford thanks to the nite-shift? a vacation away together - or a weekend in a romantic b&b? or a new fridge or the last payment on the morgage??? By looking forward to something beyond the dreadfull day it will help you remain a bit more calm...
And it will be hard to do... but have you spoken to your husband? Have you told him that you are being forced to the nite-shift and you are afride that he starts looking for human partners to keep him warm again? Have you asked him how he would better with you away the nights -what little changes in routein to feel closer the rest of the time-?
I am counting down the days until I go back onto night shift, only a week to go. I am constantly in a state of panic, I have pains in my stomach and constant headaches because of stress. I lie awake at night staring at the ceiling, wondering how my life turned out this way. I feel like it is all wrong. I feel like I want to stop and scream that this cannot be my life. It seems so wrong. No sign of another job, although I must have sent out a thousand CV's by now. I feel utterly trapped and helpless. I feel like I will just have to carry on doing what I hate, at the expense of my health, my happiness, my relationship with my husband (we grew apart to the point that he cheated on me last time I was on night shift). For what? Is this really that important? Am I really willing to sacrifice myself for this ungrateful company? Sure, the money is good but can you put a price on any of the things that really matter? Health, love, mental sanity? I feel like a caged animal and am worried I might bite the hand that feeds me if I don't do something to get out of this place.....