Have you been diagnosed with depression? have you spoken to you doctor about this irritable moments (frustrations) ... they may just be part of your depression - the lack of energy saping your patience- or it might be a little sometime extra...
But the flat line I used to feel often. Depression is an illness that you body need to heal. It is mental and physical so there are a lot of resources that are taken up... and of course we cannot just stop living ... so the regular challanges of the day also require our energy. Taken like this, it is normal that by the end of a stressful day you do not have much left !!!
I would suggest stress management as a first step. But this is just me!!! As I see it, it would help you to have a little sometime left at the end of the day to give yourself a pleasant activity once in a while...
It will be very theraptutic for you if you find the time and energy to complete the schedule. Try having a journal or day planner close at hand where you can record. Or take 15 minutes during your lunch break. Do your best. The effort you put into it will pay off.
To Brenda... I can't pretend to know what you're feeling, but I was touched by your words. I always used to believe that things go in cycles. When down, I know they will get better. Please be patient and be good to yourself in the meantime.
A comment regarding the Activity Schedule... When I'm at work, all I know is that I'm stressed and frustrated, usually at the (seemingly) incompetent people I work with that call themselves "support". I don't have the time or the inclination to figure out what I'm doing and what my mood is. When I come home, it's very simple... I feel like doing nothing and my mood is a flat line. I have no ambition or energy. I often don't even put on music or the tv.
Anyone else struggling with this? Any suggestions? Should I just continue to the next session and try to give more thought to the process?
It sounds like you are going through a lot right now. Having those feelings of being alone can be incredibly difficult. However, you can get through this!
Have you started to look through the program and the resources available here? Many members report this to be a useful tool as they begin to cope. Have you thought about speaking to a counsellor ot therapist about what you are experiencing? Perhaps having someone to talk to about your experience would be helpful? They would also be able to connect you with valuable resources that are close to you.
I am new and feeling really raw. I have nothing to look forward to in life. 15 years ago I lost my daughter Karen from inujuries she sustained in a motor vehicle accident. Now after 35 years of marriage my marriage is over. If I had known that my children would choose sides, I never would have left. I have no one and I am alone. How does one get past this. There is no joy in my life and nothing to look forward to, all I do is cry and feel horrible