Welcome to our support community. Thanks for sharing with us and know that you are not alone. The members do know where you are coming from and can share their experiences with you. Take the time to take the depression test and give a copy to your doctor. This can help pinpoint areas that you may need assistance with.
We are here and help in any way we can, so post often.
I'm new to the forum, just introducing myself. I've been dealing with depression most of my life, since I was about 9 years old. Bad family issues and the like. I'm 24 now. I tried treatment in the early teen years but it was'nt effective due to a combination of me not talking the medication properly and my mom not liking the psychiatrist. I was shuffled around to some of her therapists..but I never connected with them. I have a history of mental illness in my family. I had a failed suicide attempt at 15. Other pervasive thoughts of low self worth, anxienty, and suicide have haunted me, especially recently. I finally went to seek help as an outpatient at a psych clinic...and they said my "presentation" made me a potential danger to myself. They also said that I could be suffering for bi-polar disorder, but didn't want to make that diagnosis. I had to get picked up by an ambulance and rushed over the psychiatric ER for an evaluation and hospitialization. It was a horrifically embarrasing experience, especially since I had no say in it. I spent hours in there, retelling the same story to 5 different people...and the deemed me "well" enough to go home. I didn't want to stay, but I was barely able to tell them how I felt, it seemed like they were rushing me...wanting me to say some sort of key phrase so they could admit me.
Now it's the day after...not really sure how to feel about it...or even what to do. My fiancee found this place...so I was going to give it a try.
