Welcome back hun. No wonder you needed time to figure things out for yourself with all the crazy stuff going on. Between your hubby, the depression, the meds and your counselor needing time off, you have a lot on your plate.
I am sorry to hear things are still so rough for you. Do you know when your counselor will be available again? One way or another please feel free to come vent with us here as often as you need to or want to. As for losing track no biggie. You have supported us so many times in the past, please let us do the same for you now!
As for the dance of anger, I read it a long while back. It's fuzzy now but I remember finding it useful and interesting. I will go through my giant pile of books (I need to clean and organize the house...) and see if I can find it. Then once I mange to focus enough to read it you and I might be able to discuss it :) Anyway, I will try to find my copy :)
Well, I hope to hear more from you soon. Missed yah! Hang in there, this too shall pass!
I am sorry, however, to hear that you aren't feeling too well. It sounds like you are still going through a lot, however it is great that you are still seeing your counsellor, and that you are going to speak to a physician concerning your medications. Have you read through the program lately? Do you find it helpful?
I know that many members will be glad to hear from you, you always offer such wonderful support and advice.
Hang in there mom of 3, and please try and post often. We'd love to hear from you
I've been away for awhile but not because I really wanted to be. Mostly been trying to figure out this crazy place I am now existing in.
My husband and I are still separated and although he claims he's not saying he wants a divorce his actions show that he does.
Increasingly now I want a divorce because I feel like I've had enough of this. If it weren't for my son I think I'd be more determined that I want one. There is still a part of me that wants this to work out too, but it's fading like part of some unrealistic dream.
One thing I know is that I don't want to be alone and I have not been able to do anything with accepting that I am.
All in all I am depressed and I stay in this funk whether I want to or not. My counselor says I'm angry and need to learn to express that anger. I've been reading about it but I'm not totally sure I am emotionally stable enough to put it into practice. I'd like to try it however. The book I'm reading is The Dance of Anger by Harriet Lerner. Has anyone ever heard of it or read it? If so I'd like your opinions. Discussing it may make it hit home better. My counselor had a death in the family and I haven't had a session for awhile.
I'm also wondering how well the Celexa is working now. I seem to be stuck. I'm not bipolar but majorly depressed. It is hard to be depresive as the status quo. I don't have any relief from it. No energy no "upside" to anything. I have an appointment scheduled with my doctor concerning my medications but I think the weight gain I'm getting from them is causing depression also. It's like a viscious cycle.
I hope everyone else is doing well as I've lost track and for no good reason except I'm too depressed to concentrate on anything much. Hope what I wrote makes sense because nothing really seems to anymore.
