I am really glad you found this site as well. I also admire you and your husband's determination and strength. I know you mentioned N.M. I am wondering if that means New Mexico in the U.S. I am sure if it is in the States there are resources available through Health and Human Services. I know funds are limited but in most states there are comprehensive care facilities (offer outpatient services) to coordinate services with speical health care needs (developmental disabilities). The school system should be a resource for the information. However, I know working with a school system can be challenging as well. I hope you share your information with the moderators and let them help you look for resources in your town. You can e-mial them privately by going to the bottom of the page and use the "contact us". It will be a priavate message.
Keep us posted and remember if you want to print out the sessions so both you and your husband can work the program as kitykat suggested; it may make it easier under your circumstances.
Welcome to the site, I also did not think it came off as negative but rather that you just had a lot on your shoulders, and have come a long way with the life you were given.
Do you think your husband could benefit from joining this site also, so that the two of you can work thorugh this together? Maybe this will help you two support each other again.
I am glad you found this site as well. Your post did not come across as negative at all. I was surprised that you said you thought you were being negative. As I was reading the post I was thinking, "Wow, what a strong woman." You are dealing with a lot of stress. It is common for caregivers to be more prone to depression. You are doing an amazing thing and I want you to know I am humbled by you. For you to even to find the time to take action to fight your depression is amazing. You inspire me.
I think the program will help you but I think a priority for you should be finding help. You cannot keep functioning on 4 hours of sleep. You are only human and can only do so much. Have you tried looking into any resources where you live? Is there support workers, community center or anything around you that might be able to refer you to someone who can help? If you tell me what city you are in I will help you look. I would be happy to offer you any help I can. We are all here for you. We will get through this together.
I first want to say that you should be proud of yourself. It is very brave of you to come and post on this site, and put your personal issues out for all to see. Coming to this site was the right thing and a good start in a very good direction.
I am sorry you are going through all this stress and depression due to your life circumstances. It certainly sounds severe and I cannot imagine having all that on my plate, so to speak. You are certainly strong to have made it this far. Hang in there!! Sometimes things have to get worse before they get better. There is always a bright side and if you keep a positive, open mind, positive things will result. Some things are disguised as a negative but are actually for your benefit. Our experiences help us grow and learn. Our mistakes keep us strong and prepare to take on new things.
I really hope you start to feel better and work it out. Have you tried counseling?
not sure where or how to begin. I'm married, have four kids - two of them were born blind and have autism. The six year old is aggressive and challenging with lots of really bad behaviours that we struggle to come to terms with. The three year old is more placid but completely non verbal and can not follow a one part instruction even. Neither are toilet trained. The three year old has a twin who is 100% fine and they have an older sister of 12 with ADHD. I struggle so much emotionally and mentally and physically. My husband is very involved but we are both falling down fast in terms of depression and no longer able to lift the other up out of a slump. We have no respite (no funds in N.M) and no support from family at all and have just moved to the USA from South Africa so we know NO-ONE and as lonely as we are we have no ability to get out there and socialise, not even with other parents in the schools. I dont know how much longer I can cope...I long for bedtime so I can sleep (we get a maximum of four hrs sleep a night as both wake up throughout the night) and escape - and I dread waking up each morning where there is nothing to look forward to but more of the same.. As I'm typing this I'm thinking how negative and uninspiring I sound which is why i never talk to anyone, not even my friends back home of how bad I truly am feeling inside..who wants to be around such a negative person right?
On the plus side - I found this site...I'm hoping it helps..
