Hi Wildcat,
My OCD (which I fgured I had and joked about for many years) is mainly a control issue house has to be clean and everything in its place, plan the majority of things, don't touch me unless I know you, that is why I can't take public transit, strange people are always touching you. As I age, I have found that I can let a few things go, but when things are way out of control I seem to spiral in to chaos and think that I cannot get out. Strange as this sounds, I used to go to friends' and family homes and not be able to sit until the areas we were in were clean (I would clean them). I am now able to go to friends' homes and sit on my hands. I cannot do this at my mom's as her place is the worst place ever, so I just don't go there, because it is expected that I clean when I am there.
I think this is crazy, but the Psychiatrist said that my plans and thoughts of the big "S" word, were part of the OCD and that is my coping mechanism for out of control situations, make the plan and put it away. I am not sure, but hey, he has the degree, I don't.
As for the migraines, I have had them all my life as well, tried this, that and the other thing. Well since I was 30 I found out alot of the pain killers I had been given could have and should have killed me (the heart conditions), so now I am limited to what I can take. So T-4's and sleeping pills, a dark room and a million quilts is all I have left.
Custody battle, it was more or less, you take the kids, I don't want the kids you take the kids, fine I'll take the kids, no you won't I'll take the kids, back and forth back and forth around and around. Thankfully for my sister, (who is older than I am) she chooses not to remember anything, but me, I remember everything from seeing the slug fests between my parents when I was 3 years old up to the bull and doggy show of late (thankfully with my cocktail of medications, I cannot remember what I had for supper last night and if I don't write down appointments, I won't remember them, ah ignorant bliss).
I am on the Provincial Health Plan for people with low incomes and high medical needs, they don't cover the accupuncture, osteopaths, or other things. I can't afford to pay out of pocket for these things either so I am kind of stuck as to alternatives. If I work more, I make more money, I have less time to get family stuff done, go to doctors, therapists etc. May not qualify for the Health Benefits, which I desparately need as my heart medications alone are around $200.00 per month, this doesn't include, pain killers for either myself or my husband, anti-depressants or sleep medications blah, blah, blah. So catch 22.
To get it out, feels a little better, but it seems to be the same old same old, obssessing about the problem and not getting anything resolved.
) . I started my bouts went I was 8 years old and stressed to the max with custody battles. As a teen it snowballed and I was hooked to Furinol. This is why I am seeking alternatives for my son, osteopath and accupuncture.
