Hi....
I am new to this website, but I am not new to depression. First of all, I am doing as much research as possible on the subject. I like being informed. The more I know, the more I feel empowered to do something about it. I found this website in my research and I plan on going through the lessons.
I have been seeing a counselor. Although she helps, by kicking my butt back into reality and out of self-pity land, she really hasn't told me anything I don't already know. My husband seems to think that I am resistant to help, change, therapy... whatever you want to call it. In some ways I may be. I have been this way for so long, even though I want to get better, the thought of changing is terrifying to me.
I have gone on medication (again) because I truely believe I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and the medication helps. It helps.... the hard part is up to me.
I am trying to be more mindful. Meditaion is not something I signed up for and it's not really my kind of thing, but I am willing to try being in the here and now. My mind seems to always be full of "what-if's" and questions and thoughts.... the hard part is concentrating on what I am doing at the moment and not letting my mind wander off into all of those unknowns.
I have vowed to start taking care of me...even if I just start with the little things. Like, taking an amount of time for myself, just to soak in the tub and relax.
I am taking it one day at a time.
I know that I will have good days---
and I know that I will have bad days---
For me, the hard part is focusing on the good days. But, that's what I am trying to do.
I hope that helps.
~Bear2