Thanks for the kind words m, it means a lot that you guys are here for me, as I go through this. I had a pretty good day today, I'm not back to my normal happy self, but I did meet a my trusted friend that I work with at the beach, the tide was out, and it was a gorgeous sunny day. We walked way out in the sand and warm water, and talked and she is very understanding. Then we met up with another of her friends and found a little cafe and had lunch. I forced down half a sandwich and took the rest home.
I also found some good apps for my phone, for anxiety and depression, that are from exel for life, and they have all kinds of articles, tests and audio meditations, that you can take anywhere. I sat down in my zero gravity chair on my deck, and leaned it all the way back and did a few meditations. The one I liked the best is the rainbow meditation, and it takes you on a journey through a rainbow, and each color is a different emotion. So red is strength and orange is happiness, and yellow is joy and so on...and the thing is that if you practice it everyday, you will be able to call up the emotion you need by imagining that color. They are based on CBT so they go with what we are doing here.
How was your day, are you working?
Laura