Thanks Tiana :)
Yes I do have weekly goals:
1. To work out at least 3 times per week
2. To eat healthy at least 5 days per week (and I take weekends 'off' to eat what I want, but no junk food)
3. To be in bed before midnight during week days
4. To have at least 3 productive days per week (that means no procrastination!)
At the moment I have not done any of the new lessons because work has kept me very busy (busy good!) but I am keeping a small diary to write my thought records whenever a negative thought comes... but surprisingly, I haven't used it in a while!! That of course doesn't mean I have not had negative thoughts, because I have, is just that they have not been that strong/intense/disturbing, etc. or they go very quickly, I just can't explain it, but whatever the source was of all the darkness, it feels as if it has dissipated, or lightened up...not sure if this makes sense???
All the 'work' is getting easier now. I think I have incorporated some good lifestyle changes and at the beginning it was hard, to force myself to go to the gym, to eat good food, to do the records, etc but it gets easier and easier with the time.
I also discuss this often with my best friend - keeps me accountable and she also provides some balance that sometimes I lack, like for example when I have not been able to go to the gym as often as I wanted, she points out how great I've been doing and reminds me of my accomplishments and that helps me to balance my perspective. She did this so often that nowdays when I find me putting myself down over X or Y I automatically say to myself that this is not true, that I should not feel guilty because I've done Z and A, and all is good and that I am making great progress!!! Sometimes is good to just sit back, take a moment to notice every little progress you've made, and pat yourself on the back :)
The change was not easy at the beginning, it was hard work. But suddenly, I just realised that I changed, for the good :)
Hope everybody else here is also making little progress here and there, because at the end of the day is definitely the ACTIONS that have more impact... good actions create good feelings...!