Thank you for sharing this with us. Sorry to hear that you are having a difficult day today. Session 2 on treatment goals/plans and scheduling pleasant activities is an important one. Remember that you can start small with the pleasant activities. Going for a sunday drive with your spouse is definitely a pleasant activity! Make sure to break goals and plans down into small steps so that you can stay away from overwhelming tasks. Try to focus on the present moment as opposed to the future for now.
Continue working through the program and do keep in mind that we are here for you.
I just started my second session and am having a rather rough day today. I am off work for at least another week and the thought of going back is looming larer and larger in my mind. It seems almost impossible to me that I have been off for three weeks already.
This session is about making Treatment Goals/Plans and scheduling pleasant activities. For some reason this has triggered a further downward spiral. I was starting to feel good. I started in the gym and my energy has been relatively normal for about a week and a half. I even woke up this morning feeling pretty good.
Then just after breakfast, my little girl came in the kitchen looking for me. She is quite independant for a two year old but for the past week, I have heard "No, I want my mommy" more and more often. When she came in this morning, I started to smile and then I was filled with this feeling of dread. I wanted to cry. All I can think is that I'm afraid to go to work again. I don't want all the work that I have started to go down the drain. I feel like as soon as I step foot back in the store, everything will go back to the way it was three weeks ago. I'll be so tired by the time I get home that I won't want to spend anytime with my children. I will be too tired to do anything but veg on the couch and watch tv.
I can't seem to shake these feelings. I had them last weekend when I was thinking of my doctor's appointment. She told me not to worry about going back to work just yet. So I dealt with it and sort of forgot about it. Now today it has gotten ten times worse. The lump in my chest feels heavier than it has ever been. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to pick my goals or breakdown any into smaller steps. Also, can't seem to think of pleasant activities to do. Does going or a Sunday Drive with my husband count?
Can someone please help me and give me some advice? I hate feeling like this.
