I'm so glad you found us. I am sorry to hear how you have been suffering for so long and very sorry to hear about your losses and the pain you have had to go through in your life. That's really now fair. I often feel some of the kindest people have to go through the most pain; Perhaps this is because they are the wisest of souls and have only to learn the hardest lessons.
Sometimes hard times and difficult emotions push us to take action and it looks like this is exactly what is happening here. I know it may feel horrible now but it can be the beginning of a new way of living. As you have been depressed for 40 years it will be challenging for you to work on some very engrained beliefs and thoughts but if you put the hard work in you will see results. You will soon learn how empowering and fufilling it can be to be in control of your thoughts. Our thoughts not only shape how we feel but they also shape how we live. What is your first step in getting started? Where do you want to start?
I can relate to your post for me it has been 7 years since i was diagnosed but honestly i think i have been depressed all of my life. I understand the struggle that you are going through. I want you to know that i'm here if there is any way that i can help. well i just wanted you to know that you are not alone. I hope this helps.
Oh man, I'm at the end of my rope and am hoping this will help.
I've been severely depressed for 40 years...really that long...have seen a lot and been through a lot...abuse, mental cruelty and manipulation throughout my life, so much anger, hurt, pain and all the while never showing anyone that I wasn't the strong one. I've been a perfect actress and should get an award for it! However, after walking away from my marriage, my career, a horrible divorce and both parents passing within months of each other...I'm done.
I've travelled all over the place hoping the change in scenery and people would help, but have discovered who stares at me in the mirror is the one I have to change...or leave this planet...whichever comes first.
So here I am, struggling to survive and hoping to find happiness in me. Depending on the day I think it might be worth it...time will tell...
