I am glad you found us. From what you write it does sound like depression could be impacting your life. Have you talked to a doctor about a diagnosis? Have you tried any kind of treatment before?
I'm here as a last resort. Objectively I have a lot going for myself, but cannot seem to find hapiness or direction. Meaningful relationships are non-existant, and I have lost all motivation to be active, productive, or engaged.
I have a good job, am athletic, can mix well in a crowd, but seem to get nowhere. Why? I would never have thought that I would contribute to a group like this, or even admit that something was wrong...not sure what to do.