I wish it would be easy for me to speak out.. Sometimes I am afraid. Sometimes I feel hopeless because of my weakness to be loved and to find love. By asking if I should forgive her, I meant forgive her for abandoning me when her parents arrived. Sicne her parents arrived last year, I was being left out, out of our relationship, I was being isolated from our relationship. It was like I didnt matter anymore because she has her parents. Thats why I do not know if I can forgive her for that because she is still my wife and I do want us to be a family. Its just that I am still hurt from it.
As you may know by now that I am going through a lot of emotional pain. Sometimes I feel that my relationship is over and it is hurting me. On the other hand, I feel that my relationship will work out and just needs time. For the time being, I cry less because I feel more tired. I have constant stress which includes back and neck pain, upset stomach, trouble sleeping and eating. I used to enjoy watching airplanes but now I dont feel like it. I enjoyed hanging out with friends but not as much right now. I dont know if I want my wife back. I dont know if I want to change or have a replacement. Only reason why is because what she did to me. Can or should I forgive her?
