First of all, I am so sorry to hear about your father. Losing a job during that difficult time must have been so hard. I am glad to hear you are eager to get started on CBT. I think you will find it to be a big help. Have you had a chance to get started yet? Any questions so far?
I don't have an official diagnosis. Luckily I have a few psychotherapists in my life that are helping me find a treatment path that's right for me. I saw a therapist for a while but after 3 months I found no better understanding as to why I'm feel this way and how I can change it. My father passed away last year from cancer and I was phased out of my job because I was completely unfocused while he was sick. It was a blessing in disguise - my position resulted in a lot of anxiety and low professional self esteem - but it was still a tough time to be going through so many changes.
The biggest problems I have had is anger and irritability, not wanted to see my friends as much, and feelings of defeat and hopelessness. I have a good job now (I got recruited soon after I left my old position) but there is still lingering fears as to my worth as a professional. I'm also single, and have been dating more, but whenever a relationship doesn't work out I am left feeling incapable of being loved. The biggest struggle is I clash with those closest to me very often. I don't want to alienate everyone but I don't believe I can really confide in anyone. I'm hoping to find the right treatment and will try CBT in the meantime.
