I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember, I have been treated and started to feel better, only to be brought to my knees by life again. This current battle has been going on for a little over a year, I am on a waiting list for a doctor, take all my meds but still can not climb out of my pit of despair. A little over 3 weeks ago I found out that my husband has been having an affair for about a year. I am hurting like I never thought possible right now. I can see no end to this pain and feel like I will never be the same.
I really hope something in this program can help relieve some of the agony I am in every day. Some days I have 12 hour panic attacks! I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking. I can't concentrate at work. My poor children...I don't even know where to begin with my children.
Through the years I have pushed away pretty much everyone in my life, I don't have any sort of social network to depend on or anyone I really trust to talk to, so I go to work, try my best to take care of the kids, house and dogs and just keep carrying on, but it is an uphill battle that some days doesn't even seem worth it.
