I am new to this service but looking forward to working on my Depression (as much as anyone an look forward to that I suppose ;0)
I guess I don't know where to start. Or where it started. I have been depressed before, years ago actually, and I know there was definitely times that I was not depressed up until now. I had a traumatic event about 120 days ago- my partner of 8 years left me and moved out of province - all in the one go.
I know that was the start of this roller coaster and I am not off yet- perhaps I will be someday, but for now just learning how to deal with the bumps. Anxiety previously but now just the low, dull of depression seems to be my current companion, accompanied by small bursts of crying- they usually don't last more than 20-30 minutes max.
Glad I can still work from home, but finding it hard to focus and really care about what I am doing. I feel like I am walking around pretending most days- pretending to care, to be engaged, to - everything really.
I take meds, have a great GP, who helps me manage and has done a lot to reach out and be supportive. Done counseling of different types in the past 90 days and have yet to go back again, at the point I discontinued- I was doing relatively well and felt more optimistic.
Been told I need to reach out more, but am not 100% sure what that means. I feel that my wellness is not something I really want to visit on family and friends- or anyone else for that matter- as it can be very debilitating for others to have to support that. I know it takes an emotional toll and a lot of time I just don't want to put someone else through that, since I know this is nothing new- it is a part of who I am- and although I experience time when I am well- it may come back again. It exhausts me, so why would it not exhaust someone else?
Thoughts?
Steph
