Oh Budgie, I understand the reaction of family and friends that want to help. One time recently when I was crying my husband comforted me for a few minutes, but then said "this is too much, this can't be right... this is too much".
I sent you an email but I also wanted to reply here. I am glad you are giving CBT another try. Be sure to take notes on the program while working through as you will not be able to review sessions. Also, try to complete one session a week. Take your time with the program. How is it going so far?
I am new to this site and am giving CBT another try. I am a 30 something female that has been having an ongoing relationship with depression since I was 18. It's been a rollercoaster, as I start to feel "normal" again- then these thoughts come...it is quite distressing for me. I try to appreciate life the best as I can---I feel like there is nothing that I should feel so bad about in my life but the thoughts keep coming. It is almost normal for me. I used to think that everyone feels like that sometimes but apparently that isn't normal.
I have tried lots of things to try and help myself out over the years-working out, getting out more, etc...but often lose motivation.
I myself am afraid of getting into a relationship-I often feel as if this depression is something that I don't want to put others through. Already I've told my family and friends how I feel they often become very worried. As a result I have isolated myself quite a bit. I like children but I feel like I would be an unfit mother if I was to experience a bad depressive episode. So I say to myself, what's the point of getting into a relationship or getting married??
Anyways yeah. That's why I am here. Sorry if I was rambling but I feel this is a good place to let things out.
