Princess C. Thanks for bumping this story. Niks, sorry you went thruogh that. Love to know how you are doing today. You are another inspiration to me. I am young and as far as I know I have no health probs. I have 2 small kids. My hubby smokes too. I am horrified about what we were doing. When you r single you really are doing it to yourself, wel and some around you. When you have a family, you are hunting everyone in it.Whether you smoke around them or not. They will be affected by what you have done. Grace

bump Its so good to see you fighting the good fight niks, 92 days is amazing. You have come a long way. If you can do it any one can. [IMG]http://i104.photobucket.com/albums/m180/princessceleste_2006/thangelhugswmanbcarthrs.gif[/IMG]

Niks, I didn't see this post earlier and I am very sorry about that. You are one of a few people I really like. I hope you are doing ok. If not, try to get me your emailaddress and I will contact you. Love Fini. May this angel be your guide. [img]http://i111.photobucket.com/albums/n144/dutch_honey/tagangel2.gif[/img] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 134 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,363 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �395.3 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17

I didnt know where to post this, or whether it was even appropriate to post it here at all. If it is too heavy a topic, please feel free to delete. 3 years ago, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. It was ok, I think only at what they called Cin 2. i had laser treatment. I was told by the doctor, that this was either caused by or certainly made worse by my smoking, that i needed to give up. I promised that i would, and was given a 6 month check up date. I quit smoking for 3 months, and was determined to go back to my appt a non smoker. However, things happened and my quit failed. I was so ashamed that i was a smoker again, I didnt go back to my 6 month check up. The hospital wrote to me, and wrote to me, as did my doctor. I kept saying to myself that i would go back when I had quit. But I never managed to quit for more than a few weeks. This year I began having the most horrific stomach pains. I went to the GP and got clearance from other tests, and was persuaded to have my smear done again. Yesteray I got a letter from the hospital, there is a problem. The Cancer is back (or maybe it was never removed as I didnt go back to the clinic to have the check up). I dont know how serious it is this time. As the hospital letter simply states changes in your cells. That I need to speak to my doctor who will have the full report. I cant do that until Monday am. The reason that i put this here, is just to say, that smoking is THE most stupid thing in the world.IT plays this stupid trick on you where you think the most stupid things. I actually thought those three years, that my health could be put on hold, whilst i sorted out my smoking. Just because i was embarrassed that i was still smoking? Because i had promised i would quit? That i would quit very soon then go back, and the cancer would be clear or definately wouldnt come back? If there is changes, and it was at Cin 2, 3 years ago - it isnt exactly hopeful. Until the letter yesterday, I had even managed to forget about it. I cant believe that yesterday I was thinking about smoking again. Please dont anyone ever give up, giving up. If I ever talk about smoking again remind me of this (although I am sure that now it will be at the forefront of my mind).. Stick with your qu

Thanks, I thought shall I post this shall I not? I decided to, as the this was the PRIMARY reason why I had decided to quit 3 years ago, and had forgotten all about it. Ah well its Sunday I havent smoked tommorrow will be a week, today I am feeling strong. Getting that letter yesterday, kind of shocked me. No more did I want a cigarette, it had lost its appeal. I can call my doctor in the morning, and hope for the best that it isnt as bad as I think. That maybe the treatment wont have to be as invasive as I think it will... but one thing is for sure, smoking played a part. If it makes anyone think twice about smoking.. then fair enough. Smoking is the most dangerous game, the most stupid, and can play tricks with your mind. I just hope it will be ok. I am going to put it out of my mind until tomorrow, as I cant do anything about it until then, and the doctors isnt open until Monday am.

Your responses made me cry they seem so genuine. All that i want to say, is I know, especially when you are young, what is your health? I know that if i were in my teens or twenties i would take no notice of this post. But if you have people that care about you in this world,what is smoking? What does the worry do to them? Simply because you are selfish and take risks with your life? I am 37, I have 2 daughters aged 17 and 18. For most of their life I was a single parent, so if something were to happen to me, it would have a significant impact on their life. Their father is in their life, but I have always been there, day in and day out from day one. I feel so bad that smoking, came first before my health. That i put off sorting out my health for the sake of a lifestyle choice. People think I can give up TOMORROW, there is always tomorrow. I just want to say, that one day, it may come as a shock to you, that there is no tomorrow. Perhaps? I am a young vibrant, energetic person. I do sports, I love to party to go camping, to enjoy the outdoors basically to enjoy life to the full and to the max... but i never respected that, not until now. it was like smoking was a part of me. If you take me, then you take me for who I am, a smoker - how ridiculous is that?? sorry If I am rambling... I went out to a Brazilian bar tonight, it was a Brazilian football match - they won so no surprises there. We were drinking end of the weekend. Tomorrow back to work. People were smoking around me, but this time, when I saw the smoke out of their mouths I visualised something else... CANCER.. And I didnt feel jealous I didnt feel that i was missing out. Who on earth wants to play russian roulette with smoking? That is what we do every single day as a smoker, we play russian roulette. We dont actually care about the outcome of smoking, because to us in our minds it is a) Something that happens to other people. b) Something for the future, as long as we quit before the future, then we will be fine.... Well we will, wont we? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 6 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 134 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �30 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 3

Niks, I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through this, it's a long wait until Monday for you. That is a really sobering post. You're totally right, we can't see what damage we're doing to our bodies when we smoke and it's shocking how much we'll ignore or put off considering we are so likely to become ill directly because of it. I hope that you're ok and that it can be treated without too much stress or disruption. Best Wishes, Chicken Licken [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/2/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 47 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 615 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $517 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 35

My thoughts are with you Niks. Please keep us posted so we can here to support you. [IMG]http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a17/Daniwiz/hug.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/12/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 38 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,156 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $152 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

Niks, Thank you for sharing this with the SSC. We will be sending good thoughts your way tommorrow. I think it was wise to post this here because now that we are aware of what you're going through, we can be there to see you through it. This news I'm sure will only solidify your committment to quit. It will also help others maintain theirs in times of temptation. Check back soon and let us know how you're doing. Danielle ____________________________________________ The SSC Support Team

Niks Thank You for your post. Sobering, yes. Provocative, yes. The information that you provide and the experience that you offer in your post are a huge benefit to this community. I agree with N2K, keep posting, keep coming here and getting what ever support you need and all those blessings do add up. Thank You and blessings to you. Phillip [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 121 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,427 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $907.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1