Thanks, I needed that. I really don't feel like a smoker anymore, which is kind of interesting. But the one thing that I expected that didn't happen in the quit, was I was going to feel great! Ummm, most of the time I feel like your last post HALT (Hungry, angry, lonely, and tired). I suppose it has to do with where you are when you quit. I was in good shape when I quit, better than I am now actually, so the physical benefits are not as obvious to me as they might be to someone who was really feeling the effects of smoking physically. And what I didn't realize, was how much smoking effected my mental state. I didn't really think of myself as an addict and I didn't have any idea the emotion toll that getting "sober" aka "quitting", would have on me. I'm starting to have some skill around recognizing when I'm feeling something bad, and addressing it without smoking and finding healthy ways to cope.
This journey is long. The nice thing at this point is I know that I have made it to some major milestone, because I really don't want to smoke. Sometimes it smells good to me, but I can no longer image actually putting a cigarette in my mouth, which is truly amazing and I hope it stays that way. What I can't say is that I feel so GREAT!... Hmmm, not yet, I still don't feel great. I don't feel like a totally depressed, whiny, blob, like I did there for awhile, but I still don't feel GREAT!. I can't seem to have the same resolve in other areas of my life, which I find frustrating. I keep telling myself it will all come out in the wash. My dicipline in other ares of my life will return. But gees, this road is not always easy, in fact sometimes its really hard, but I'll keep the faith because of posts like this one.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 175
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,266
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1225
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1
