Hello again Andrea,
Yes, isn't it great to be in touch. It's 10.45pm here in England now, though, so this one will be my last tonight I think (I find that letting myself get too tired is unhelpful, and often feel a lot stronger after a couple of early nights!)
But I had to write straight back, because I love it when one of you does that, and because, Andrea (I like the "Panic Schmanic" too!) you've proved your talents at reading people well, again!!
- First, yes, it DOES feel like a real need, not just a wish of mine, to get away/express my real personality again;
- Second, I totally agree about the kids being my responsibility (and would NEVER renege on that: in fact I may well overdo the "staying by" them, and have restricted myself unnecessarily by doing so too much: I've NEVER been away without them (though they've been on school trips etc, of course, without me, individually)and the eldest is 14!!
-Thirdly, you're so right about acknowledging that you're not happy. I should have done so years ago (in a more assertive way, rather than just expressing misery..and indeed making all the family suffer) and taken steps to make myself happier....but I'm doing it now.
-Fourthly, no problem about the Grand Canyon thing, don't be embarrassed!! I think it's great to be in touch across the water and I love making American friends; much more fun and interesting than sticking to my own country! I love the way you all seem to talk so openly...I do too, but not everyone here seems comfortable with it.
Glad you're having a good day. Yes, agree about the hormone levels (I read lots of interesting posts on the discussion on that topic on this site). Good for you, managing to prevent the heartbeat/shakes stuff: I'm trying to kind of "talk my heart down" when it starts to thump: I imagine it will slow down if I just breathe slowly and "will" it to stop racing. It seems to work a bit.
Me too, on the Zodiac stuff: I am interested in it, (though a bit embarrassed to admit it, as it's definitely "hokey", no question...but since you admit it too, that's OK!) though more on the personalities typical of each sign, than the horoscopes, which seem less believable to me. Actually I'm a very typical Cancerian (lots of crying, imaginative, home-loving, etc...). Y