hannaher,
Wow, that's a tough call, isn't it? As close as I was with my grandmother, who is now deceased, I know, given the opportunity again, I would spend all the time with her that I could. At the same time, you don't want to put your quit at risk.
Well, since there is no manual for this type thing, all I can do is tell you what I think I'd do in your situation. Maybe you could still go and see her but shorten our visits. As for the car, be sure the window on her side is slightly cracked and all the other windows closed to pull the smoke out. Be sure you have candies, mints, water, whatever coping skills you need to help you when it may feel tempting. If at any time, it gets to feeling like too much, since your grandmother can't leave the room...you can. Maybe you could get her a clean air machine? Use a fan in a window to pull the smoke out?
You surely don't want the result of throat cancer as your grandmother has experienced. You also want to keep her close to you. I guess as ex smokers, we all need to eventually deal with being around those that do smoke. You're at 3 weeks...so I know you're strong. I'm sure you'll find a way to get through these trying times without smoking. In turn, maybe your anxiety will ease, you and your grandmother will feel much better and you'll become a very, very strong ex smoker.
You keep hanging in there. Since you want this so badly, you'll find a way. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/2/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 545
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,908
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1945.65
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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