My husband had me set the alarm for 5:30 for him. I told him since I have to turn it off (clock ison my side), I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep. Guess what? A self-fulfilling prophecy! I woke up and had an attack. Diarrhea, nausea, tingling, shaking, heart pounding. I tried to calm down with breathing and relaxation tapes. I listened to them about 4 times over, but never slept. I kept getting up to go to the bathroom. The nausea and diarrhea make the anxiety 10 times worse. At least if I could breathe and calm myself, it would get better, but I can't control the cramping and nausea and they take over. I finally got up at 9am since Mike was home and could feed the kids. I rode the exercise bike for a few minutes to try and stimulate some energy, but it make me sick. I had some tea and toast, my vitamins and a ¼ Xanax, then almost vomited. I hate that drug because It just knocks me out, but sometimes nothing else works. I€™m going to try to talk myself into a good night and day today.
