[font=comic sans ms][color=purple]Hi Duckie067!
I am so sorry to hear that you are having a hard time with stopping smoking and your husband still dipping. Oh, how I understand!
The last time that I quit - I caved, and I hope that you will take my story to heart and understand that I feel your pain. Although the situation is slightly different, the pain and hurt is the same.
I quit last year for 6 months. You see, my husband has never smoked a day in his life and has never been with a woman that smoked before. He thought that he could handle it, but he couldn't.
I am a very affectionate person, I love spending time cuddling, kissing and loving on my spouse. He told me that he couldn't kiss me because I tasted like an ashtray, no matter how long I brushed my teeth. My hair and cloths smelled of smoke no matter how long I showered or how many times I washed my cloths. This really began to bother me. He told me that if I quit smoking that he would be much more affectionate to me and it would make him feel better as well. That was all it took for me! I ran out and got some patches and stopped smoking the very next day!
A week later he did kiss me a little more because "The smell from my lungs" that he complained of sort of decreased. A month later he was spending so much time loving on me and such that I was on top of the world! I couldn't have been happier!
A month later things began to change. All of a sudden he wasn't kissing me as much, wasn't holding me as much, etc. etc... I was broken! I approached him on it! I asked him why he made me these promises and after me keeping my word to him to quit smoking he stopped keeping his word with me. And like your story, there were no answers. [b]It wasn't fair![/b] I kept my end of the bargin! So, I thought to myself "[i]why bother![/i]" and I started smoking again.... the worse thing I could have done.
So, a year later I find myself waking up at night coughing and wheezing. I can't walk a flight of stairs without being out of breath. Plus! Ohio started passing smoking bans..so it wasn't so easy to have a cigarette anymore.
I thought about the benefits over the habit and I decided to quit again, but this time it was different, this time I quit for [B]ME! and me only![
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