My dear Monica, When I read this post, my jaw about dropped! Even though I don't post much anymore, I still read quite frequently and I just HAD to log in to post to you. I'm so terribly sorry you are going through such a hard time, but just remember that God does not give you more to deal with than he knows you can handle. You are a fine quitter and I know that you will succeed. However, as one who HAS walked in your shoes, at least to some extent, I would like to offer you some words from my own experiences that may or may not be of any use to you. If it is, then I am very glad, but if it doesn't apply to your life, then that is fine too. I first started this quit journey over a year and a half ago, but "slipped up" when I lost my job, was assaulted and dislocated my shoulder. I was 34 month in and it was all I could do to keep my sanity. So believe me when I understand when you speak of difficulties in your life. Although, thank God, I did not lose anybody close to me and cannot even begin to understand how horrible that ordeal had to have been for you, I DO understand how difficult times can make you run to the only thing we ever knew to run to whenever things got difficult. That slip, I did not reset my meter and 34 days later (notice how long it took... you're not out of the woods after a few days after a slip... just remember that), I "slipped" up again. That time, I did reset my meter (it had 68 days on it), but felt so bad about it that I ended up putting it back where it was and then WAM! 64 days after that (with 132 days on my meter), I "slipped" again. That was when I reset my meter and am here today, completely smoke free. That isn't to say that it was easy... I just finally learned my lesson, I guess. I REALLY hope that you will have learned yours after just one mistake. It took me three and a reset of my meter. I'm not suggesting that you reset yours... I'm just telling you the ONLY thing that worked for me. You and I are very different people and I sincerely hope that you do not make my mistakes your mistakes as well. So, speaking from experience, having been where you are right now, I would like to offer some words of advice. #1 - Always be on your guard. Now that you've done it once, it will be a lot easier to do

That was supposed to say "34 DAYS" in, and not 34 month.

Lady We do hope Monica will resurface. Have a very Merry Christmas and New Year.

Hi Monica, Ya know you are a wonderful human being! Enjoy those walks and hot showers, they all wonders for me. After a little time and when you are feeling ready and up to it. Do have happy holidays!

Hello Monica, Very good advice here and I have read many of your posts as well that have given very good advice, showed sensitivity, and strength. Forget about what has gone before, exactly like how we forget about smoking. A slip should not be considered a restart, continued slipping could be different; do not get caught up in the continued part. Let sleeping dogs lie and as for the meter question, don�t reset it. Now let�s just put this in the back of our minds and continue with the quit. Good luck to you Monica and keep supporting us.

Monica, Monica.... Don't be too hard on yourself gf. You have been through enough the last months. You know what to do and when to do it girl. Take every day as it comes and try to stay quit. You know how to do that but please girl, don't be too hard on yourself. Big hug from Holland (((( MONICA)))) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 268 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,709 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �790.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 36 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37

(((hugs))) You know what to do and how to do it. God bless. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 107 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,367 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $856 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

Monica, We are here and ready to help support you through this journey when you are ready. Try to enjoy the holiday season. Danielle ____________________________ The SSC Support Team

Hi Monica, Sorry to hear this, but the others are right, get right back to the business of quitting and don't look behind you. Moving forward and taking back what's yours is what is most important. Glad you're getting help and hope you're feeling better. The holidays are tough for lots of people for lots of different reasons. Dedicate the time you need to yourself to reflect on you and Dad and all of things that are important and memories that make you happy. We're here..... Hugs CobenFan [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/25/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 274 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,487 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $959 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

Monica58, You've tested yourself a bit here with your slip. You've learned what you were supposed to learn. Don't ever say you don't know what to say here. You can say whatever you need to say. Use all of the support you can right now and if you need some you time, then take it. It will pass. You will make to the other side of this, stronger for it. I wish I could take just a little bit of your sadness and each of us could take just a little bit of your sorrow and in exchange I would give you just a little bit of the happiness I have and each of us could exchange with you just a little bit of our happiness. And you could feel it in your soul. And you know, regardless of the incessant tears, that this is your path and through this trial you will grow, you will gain strength and you will love yourself for being exactly who you are. Because you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Have faith, you know deep down that smoking will fix nothing, of course. Breathe and keep walking. Walk as far as you can and let the tears fall. We care. All my best. keep fighting - fish [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/21/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 369 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,090 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1845 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26