Love all your replies! I can't remember what I was wearing in that Bill Clinton dream, but I'm sure it wasn't a blue dress. LOL And, that Woodstock story was hilarious. It's nice to see so many senses of humor on here. I would call it free entertainment, exactly. Last night I had a really nice dream about my grandmother who has passed. We shared some time together before I woke up.
Well I'm gonna try to quit tomorrow. I can already feel my tenseness building. I hate to say it this way, but it's as if I am preparing to never see my "best friend" ever again. It's an abusive and dysfunctional relationship with cigarettes because even though they are bad for me they have been there for me when I needed them. After every argument, sleepless nights, and good times I have had cigarettes to lean on. During my divorce when I couldn't keep any food down they were there to keep me going. I know I am a true nicotine addict, but it's time to quit. I want to live longer. And, I have watched my mother go from a strong healthy woman who smoked to an oxygen dependent, emphysema, copd, asthmatic at 65 years old. She is home bound and is also legally blind due to macular degeneration that can also be caused from smoking. She smoked about 4 packs a day until a year and a half ago when she got put in the hospital for not being able to breathe. She was in there 4 days and when she came out she had to have home oxygen 24 hours a day. She quit smoking, but only after it was impossible to breathe. Now her lungs are failing and I'm so sad for her.
That's the reality of cigarettes. It's a gamble she was willing to take and when she started smoking the doctors were even pushing women to smoke to lose weight! Ugh!
Well I'll go for now, what a novelle I just wrote.
Thanks for your support, friends!