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for 17 år siden 0 2534 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hi kiwi, Even after 947 days it's still a state of mind. I sat outside a cafe on the southbank yesterday during our gloriously hot summer(it took place this year on the 5th and 6th of August!!!)just sipping diet coke and watching a very special world go by. After about 20 minutes a very respectful and well-groomed couple sat at the next table imbibing gin and tonic and chatting freely. All was well and then.............he lit up and the smoke wafted across me. A problem? Not at all - it smelt fine, attractive even but left me feeling no different to if it hadn't happened and that is because I know that I do not want to smoke any more. I sat there comfortably and cintinued to enjoy my day. Currently, my state of mind is that I do not smoke and I hope it holds for the rest of my life but who knows? ;) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/18/2004 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1175 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 23,500 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �5,875.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 188 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33
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for 17 år siden 0 672 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Joyful, it's just that i'm around smokers alot & i see how relaxed they are when they're fagging it, just drives me crazy how my mind is always racing..... sometimes i just wanna s l o o o o w d o w n it's great meeting others with the same interests & can be quite soul clensing, i guess thats what this place is about eh. This addiction thing is a bit of a bumpy ride huh. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 947 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 33,145 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6,155.50 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 135 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 35
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for 17 år siden 0 715 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Ok Kiwi, with those stats I'm surprised to hear these words coming from you :( Take time to read my "falling" thread to see what I just went through to realize that my life is worth living. Man they were so nasty, for real, and I can feel those poisons in my throat & chest so bad :( So I already did it for u :) Don't even go there cuz it won't change the world (fear of no control & lack of faith) nor will it make u happy. I know I just made a ton of excuses but my body is paying for it now. I know the cig's didn't change anything but make me want to quit more. And it's a miracle that I haven't totally relapsed & am more excited about quitting than ever. GOD is good and he will take care of the stuff in this world that we can't. We just have to have faith. I no it's not easy b/c I knew this before I slipped but couldn't bring myself to absorb it. Even through all my yrs of recovery with alcohol and all that I've learned and as much as I've grown in my spirituallity I couldn't find it a few hrs. ago. But then I haven't been living it this past yr. either. I haven't relapsed with drinking but I also haven't been to many meetings or living my life as I know GOD wants me to. So I guess as hard as it is I need to get my butt back to work for GOD and not selfishly for me. I hope I can do it & I hope everyone on this site will succeed :) Just breathe....... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/9/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 28 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 560 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $134.40 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28
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for 17 år siden 0 672 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Hey there guys good for you for being honest with yourselves, refreshing stuff for once. while we're all being honest here.... I enjoyed smoking + i could actually relax, what with all the greed, lies & deception within todays society it won't be long before i start smoking again either, the more i learn the worse it gets peace ! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 947 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 33,145 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6,155.50 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 135 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2
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for 17 år siden 0 3207 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
really sorry to hear that 2 cents. Sounds like you aren't really sure if you're glad you started again or not [quote] I will tell you what I should have done the very first day I quit. After 135 days, I still had cigarettes in the house. [/quote] You talk about junkie thoughts leading you to smoke, but then you say you feel better. We all know that there are some hard times, and sometimes we don't feel physically our best when we stop smoking, but overall, in the long run, we all also know that it is healthier for us to not smoke. I hope you reconsider and get back to your quit. We'll all support you, you know that too -aloha [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/22/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 137 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,480 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $931.60 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52
for 17 år siden 0 710 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
2cents, oh I sure hate to hear this, but you are not the first and won't be the last! I have come close so many times! Do come back read postz, hopefully one day you will be back with us, I know about just not being ready, I sure wasn't the three times before this time is for real, I hope and pray that every day! hugs, prayers,pixie dust, Bobbi [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/27/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 132 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,960 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $330.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7
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Good for you for being honest with yourself, 2cents. I'm about ready to give up tonight myself. I know the reason is b/c I don't have much self-worth right now plus a bunch of other excuses. Like I just broke up with my boyfriend, pain, this aching knott and hunger I keep getting for a cig. But on the other hand I've had my butt glued to my bed for 2 days! But I honestly don't have much fight left in me. I'm trying but I think I'll just quit again some other time. I realize many will be disappointed in me but that's life. I just can't take it anymore right now. It's not like a 15 min. crave, it's been a week of serious fighting and I'm just ready to fall. Just breathe....... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/7/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 30 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 600 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $144.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32
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for 17 år siden 0 911 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
Thanks for sharing your experience 2cents. All the best to you, and I do hope that you will join us in this journey again when you are ready. Take care, Boxerfan [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/28/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 130 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,600 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $650.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 48 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41
for 17 år siden 0 16 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo 0
After quitting cold turkey and going 135 days without a cigarette. I gave in to just one little Junkie thought on July 25,2007. The worse thing about it is I didn't have any excuse. I wasn't under any kind of stress. Happy as could be. Then at 4:00 pm in the afternoon. I had a junkie thought that one little puff wouldn't hurt. I was at home alone. Well, I live alone so I'm usually alone at home. Before I tell you what happened. I will tell you what I should have done the very first day I quit. After 135 days, I still had cigarettes in the house. Most days I forgot they were even there. I had a little over a pack left over when I quit. They were hid out of sight in the kitchen cabinet. A cabinet I never use. I walked into the kitchen to get a drink of water. I wasn't thinking about a cigarette. As soon as I finished the drink of water. A junkie thought came in my mind. Hey, your doing so good. It won't hurt to have one little puff. After all you've been quit for 135 days. One puff won't negate that. For some strange reason I impulsively swung open the cabinet door and grabbed the pack that was still open. I had the date and time wrote on the outside of the pack. The last day I smoked was march 8th at 10:45 am. I flipped the top open and grabbed a cigarette. I took 3 drags and quickly put it out. I felt a little guilty, but not much. The next day I didn't smoke a single cigarette. I didn't even crave one. Didn't even think about smoking. So, this led to another junkie thought. Since I hadn't craved or smoked a cigarette the next day after smoking 3 puffs from the night before. I thought. You know, I think I can smoke a cigarette every now and then...or just take puff or 2. And everything will be fine. The day after that, which was July 27..I smoked 3 cigarettes. To make a long story short. I'm smoking every day now. The worse part about it is this. I don't feel guilty about it. This is sad to say, but I have more energy now and actually feel better.The entire 4 and a half months I was quit I didn't have any energy whatsoever. My energy has returned now. My desire to quit wasn't and isn't more powerful than my desire to smoke. Will I ever quit again? I don't know. I know I'm not ready now.I'm wasn't serious about staying quit with my lack of energy. I did gain about 20 pounds when I quit. That could have been part of it I don't know. I went to 3 doctors while I was quit and had tests done. They couldn't find anything wrong. Lungs were clear. Blood pressure normal and a pulse rate of 59 which is excellent. Would I have smoked if I hadn't had cigarettes in the house? Probably, because the store is 2 minutes away. Well, my book is finished :) I'm happy where I am. I think all the wonderful people on here for all the valuable information and friendship. I'm going to miss posting those stats with the "March Mellows" What a terrific group, as all of you are. I don't know when I will return here, if ever. I have to want to stop smoking before I or anyone can quit. I don't have the desire to quit now. Maybe later, Maybe not. Ya'll take care. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/8/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 150 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,750 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $570.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 24 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 25 [B]Seconds:[/B] 57
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