i somewhat know what you are going through. although i don't worry that if i eat i'll vomit and then choke to death, i do have similiar worries i think that i eat fine, but i am very picky about what i eat. i always check expiration dates, and if they are already passed, i will not eat it. i also am very weary of how things are cooked. as a child i remember always thinking that my mom was trying to poison us. because she would cook and as she cooked she would eat, and she's not a big eater anyways (unless it come to junk) so she'd cook then let us eat but wouldnt' eat anything so as a child i had a fear that she was trying to poison us. one fear that i've always had though (and which relates to your post) is that my #1 fear (the fear that i always say i'd rather die than do this . . . ) is vomitting. silly i know to say that you'd rather die than do it, but it has always been my #1 fear. i worry incessantly about my eating habits, i try to make sure i eat fairly healthy meals (and try and stay away from any junk food in excess) i make sure to try and not overeat all in fear of later on getting sick. (this fear is always probably why i have never tried alcohol) my bf thinks that i think too much when it comes to food, and i do love food so i don't think i'd stop eating, but i constantly keep myself in check and make sure i stay away from junk food as best that i can. i've dealt with my issues with food for a long time and still am learning to deal (when i first started having major problems with panic attacks i would NEVER go out to eat, i would only eat something that either my parents made or that i made) now i have moved on from that by once i started to date (which was my senior year of HS) i would first practice going to small restaurants and eating there (with my older sister) but this lead to my only wanting to eat at the places i had gone to before and was now familiar with. for a long time i still had problems with getting nervous while eating and then feeling miserable afterwards and sick to my stomach cuz it was all tied in knots. i (and others) would notice that i would get my food and gobble it all up real fast and then get full too fast, which would lead to me feeling uncomfortable and wanting to leave the restaurant running out . . . but sin

i'm pleased to hear that you are feeling a bit better, i hope that it gets better for you.always about if you need a chat, take care, love and hugs, becca.xx

I have only had 2 panic attacks, my first panic attack happened when I was eating. It was terrible!!! I hardly ate anything after that, I was so scared that I was going to have another attack. Thats was about 4 months ago and I still haven't eating that food that gave me the attack. I eat better now, like the other person said, start slow, eat soup, or maybe cut things up in small pieces, then you wont feel like you would choke. take care

Thank you Becca, love and hugs back That’s what I’ve been doing, eating soups and such. Things that are easy to digest. Hehe I’d love to have a bit of your comfort eating! Talk about a catch 22 situation, if I don’t eat enough through the day I start to panic cause I’m not thinking straight. I’ve starting to lighten up a little about my choking phobia, since talking to people about their choking stories. Seems we’ve all got one to tell! Take care xo.

i'm so sorry to hear that you are findng things so hard. i know how it feel to panic, i don't have the problem with eating though, i'm the opposite, can't stop eating for comfort. i wondered though if you had soup would you still worry so much, as it's smooth you make find it easier to eat. i've got some ideas in making soup if you'd like. i'm sorry if i've not been any help, if you ever need to chat about it more then drop me a line and i'll be here for you. take care, love and hugs, becca.xx

Hi there, My main problem getting through the day to day is eating. My biggest fear is that after eating I'm going to vomit and choke to death. (sounds silly I know!)It's because I've had really bad experiences with vomiting in the past where I've choked for what seemed like ages. It's really effected me. So when I have a panic attack I fear fainting, vomiting and choking all leading to death. I'm beginning to eat less because of this. Logically I know it's totally irrational. I just want to know if any of you have had a fear of eating and how you've dealt with it. Thank you.