hi, you sound a lot like me, it is hard for me to do the sessions right or to think i am doing them right because i can't putany certain thig down that really bothers me. the program is great and it helped a lot but now that i am into the exposure work i, i don't know what to do because there is not a person that bothers me , i am not affraid of anything that i know of. ( dogs, heights,crowds, tight places. etc. etc.) i also come from a loving family and have a lot of friends and support. excuse my spelling please. i talk well but spell poorly sometimes. ha. i am my own worst enemy. it is all in my what if way of thinking. i lived with a lot of people looking up to me all my life, saying you can do anything , you can fix anything, you always know just what to say. you keep your head and you don't panic when your needed for anything. well i think you are the same way. in my mind they have built me up way bigger or greater than i am. i guess i cover up my fears and thoughts. i think it is all in my negitive what if thinking. it is sort of a thing wher i have to save face. some one told me about a book the is called , how to cope with or how to live with being average and said it worked wonders for them. i think people like us do this to ourselfs. i think it is our sub con. and con. mind fighting against each other. i have a tape and i don't know where i got it but it is a sort of self hypnosis tape that you listen to at bed time for a week and you end up falling asleep on it everytime and after a week you listen to it at bed time and two times through out the day, setting up in a chair. an it get conscious and sub conscious mind on the same page. it has helped me a lot. i could be wrong but i think when we can't find a problem with anything or anyone else we have to be doing this to ourselves. the tape says master series relaxation and it has the name barrie konicov on it. potentials unlimited, inc. 4025 broadmoor se.po box 891. grand rapids. mi 49518. subliminal persuasion. i don't know if you ever heard of th Landmark education program or not. but it will help you a lot. i think everyone should go through it. it is a three day program where you are in a room with about 30 other people and an instructor and five or six helpers. it covers your whole