to be honest im just not happy anymore, i dont want to be here!i just cry all the time and have these thoughts on how crap my life is and how much i bring everyone down and how moody i am and have a go at everyone, im just not me anymore and i hate it, i dont no who i am, and noone cares anymore i think everyone has given up hope just like me! noone wants to no me anymore, just give me all there crap to deal with all the time but then when i need someone there, there is noone. it just feels so hopeless and lonely. i dont no what to do, and with the panic attaks its just impossible to get anywhere, the only time im happy is when im asleep, but noone understands there just like your a strong girl you been through alot you can get through this so you just give up asking when thats there reply, but im not strong anymore iv had to be the last 5 years in a violent relationship i just cant do it anymore.