Thanks for the replies Davit and Dizzy. You have no idea how much it means.
I'm not sure what is causing this setback, but it just seems that things were working and now they are not. My anxiety levels have been thru the roof since Friday morning. Do you think it has to do with upping my dose of Celexa because I have read that it can exacerbate your anxiety symptoms for a while. I know it needs time to work. I have taken it in the past, and it seemed to do the trick. I was originally prescribed Paxil 3 years ago, but I could not handle it, so they switched me to Celexa and it worked for 2 years. Then I think I made the mistake of coming off it because I didn't think I needed it anymore. So I was fine for 8 months...but then come this September, I was back at the bottom. And I tried to beat anxiety on my own for a month before I let my doctor put me back on it. However, Davit, I will ask him about what you recommended, but in the mean time, I will carry on with my Celexa. Thank you for the suggestion.
Dizzy, I will check out the relationship section for sure. It is just so hard to deal with this when you don't know anyone else around you who is dealing with it too. Its like no one gets its. Which is why I like coming on this website and participating in the forums, so that does provide some relief. But then when I'm around everyone else in my daily life, they don't get it, and I just look at them and want nothing more than to be normal like them. Do you know what I mean?? I'm really looking forward to seeing the CBT therapist on Tuesday, maybe that will help too.
You did as i did when first starting this program was to charge ahead with the first sessions. This was a mistake for me becuase if you look at the bottom of the tool box you will notice sessions on relationship and how to speak assertively etc. I am making the recommendation that you start looking at your relationships especially since you said you feel lonely. This seems to be common with anxiety and people who have had it a long time on and off. This is where you may need to some work or not what ever you think is going to help.
Celexa is a good SSRI, but it is an antidepressant. And it looks like you need an antianxiety on a short term till you get your mind around the fact there is nothing wrong with you. Ask your Doctor his opinion. But stay on the Celexa please.
Things had been getting a lot better lately...its been 3 weeks now and I was pleased with my progress as I head into week 4. However, the last 2 days have been pretty rough again, so I'm feeling a bit defeated and thought I would write about it. For the first 2 weeks of treatment, my doctor had me on 10mg of Celexa, and I was reading this program. The 3rd week, my doctor upped my dose to 20mg (which was the dose I was on 3 years ago when I had my first encounter with anxiety). I adjusted well to the new dose I think, and was starting to see an improvement. I went from feeling bad, to feeling ok, and this week, I was again feeling better. I still dont feel good, and I know that will take time. But I am really struggling right now. The hardest part for me is believing that there is nothing else wrong with me. It seems so silly to say out loud because I have been through this before and everything was fine. I felt the same way last time, and after the meds kicked in, then I felt a lot better. But now I am right back where I was, but I just cant seem to accept the fact that its only anxiety. I have had blood work done, and everything is normal. I have been seeing my doctor once a week for a check up, and I tell him of all my symptoms and he tells me he is not concerned there is anything else wrong, and I trust him. But my mind is playing nasty tricks on me. I have read 5 sections of the program, and I have an appointment with a CBT therapist on Tuesday, but I'm still scared and feeling very alone. Does anyone have any advice to help me get thru this rough patch? I want to carry on with my recovery and get over this road block. I love coming on here and reading the forum discussions and I love seeing how everyone is so supportive, its refreshing for me. I would really appreciate any thoughts! I hope everyone else is doing well!!
