So glad to hear you are doing well. I'm hoping that you have continued success, maybe the medication will keep the "crash" from happening again. You do deserve longterm happiness.
I am so happy to hear you are doing well. That feeling you speak of, being afraid it will go away, planning for the worse I know it well. I think it can be challenged though and I think it is possible to leanr to plan for the best. Anyway, thanks for al the positive news. Take care and keep us posted.
I am fantastic. Not that nervous jittery uncontrolled hypomanic high. I am claiming back my life - energy. I have reached the therapeutic dose of the topiramate and I will see where that will take me... but I do not have a week's worth of dishes all over the kitchen ... I do not have 3 month's worth's of laundry stacked into skii hills in the basement ... I worked on a nice bead project and put up two ikea storage shelves this weekend.
I am answering my kiddies' questions again with sensible responses. And At the end of the day i do not fall into the bed and want to die (with the feeling -oh **** I'm alive this morning, might as well hit the routein). My husband is the happy recipient of a better mood at the end of the day and the early start ... -but that is another story with too much information-
And in the the tiny back corner of my mind i wonder when the plug will be pulled and I will crash again. When will will all the good be TAKEN away and I will be left a waste again. I really try to ignore this little blip. But my past was so full of hurt and disappointment that I have come to expect the negative and plan for it. To the point were I sometimes believe I do not deserve any big or sustained positive Good in my life.
But I take a big breath and do some thing busy and the non-sense passes.
I just read that you and your wife are separated while she's in South Africa. I hope the time goes quickly for you both. Good to hear that you can speak to her daily and that you have some support while she is gone. I take it her children are support for her while she's away also. Best wishes to you both, keep us informed of how you're doing.
To Wildcat,
How are you doing since vacation? I trust well and continuing to get better.
Hi, Wildcat. Thanks for asking and yes, I'm doing okay but anxious about this very very long separation from my wife in South Africa. I won't see her and her boys here in Canada as landed immigrants until the New Year 2009 earliest. I do speak to her every day on Skype and we can talk for hours and it doesn't cost anything. The sound quality is brilliant!
I am 187 Days quit now and feel much more lively. My son is still finding his feet in this strange adult world and is without job or study programme right now... my sister is a busy woman running around from one friend to another in San Diego and Muskoka and Provincetown and staying relaxed and chatty. I won't see her for supper for another week or so but then I'll invite her down for a weekend and a nice sit-down-chit-chat....
So glad that you're having a good time these days and that you're in full learning process. Next thing to do with Chouette is for you and he to have a pillow-fight since you've been having good pillow talks... you both need some personal 'kiddy' time for yourselves to celebrate the fact that you are alive and in love with each other....
I had been wondering where you were. I'm glad to hear you were having fun! Your story was very nice to read and I'm looking forward to hearing more of your experiences when feeling good. You have a very poetic way of writing your stories and they are fun to read. Even if I'm not in a good place you have the ability to let us feel your successes and see what you see. Thank you!
