Remind you that that exact spot in that pit ... many of us have sat there and contemplated the same notions!
Comfort you that 16 sessions is not 16 minutes nor 16 weeks. But 16 bits of information that you can work on at your rythem. (pssst I am still at 7!! trying to get the basics a part of my life style! I am one stubborn Taurus)
Comfort you so that the strenght comes from a little all over. A little from us , a little from your family , a lot from yourself , some from care workers . and a smile from a stranger can also be of help on a rainy day.
Here I am, just kicked off session 1 of the program, and it hits me that this is a massive task I'm setting myself here and I can see nothing but more failure. 47 years it has taken to create the sorry edifice of my life and excuse for a personality, and I am attempting to tear all that down and rebuild it, remake myself and the way I think, in sixteen sessions. How do people maintain the motivation and energy to do this? I feel intimidated and petrified of failing at this, as I fail at everything. Where can the strength come from? Maybe it comes down to feeling that I am important enough to rescue, and that's difficult to achieve - I can't make myself feel something in my gut that's not there.
This is getting less and less lucid. I must stop - burdening you good people with my immature ramblings.
, a little from your family 
, a lot from yourself 
, some from care workers 
. and a smile from a stranger can also be of help on a rainy day.
