Well we talked to the dog counselors and we all came to the conclusion that the dog was to young for us and really needed a younger more active family. We would be better off with a older more layed back dog being that we are seniors. I am feeling depressed about it but I think it is the best thing for us and the dog. Anyway now we have to return all the supplies that we bought for the dog $300 dollars worth. This is going to be very hard for me so my partner said he would do it. Well I guess I am going to have to find something else besides a dog to help me deal with my depression and ptsd. I do not know what it will be or how I will do it. I am still searching for some inner peace in this world.
Well we went out and looked at dogs again yesterday and today. We looked at some smaller breeds and the were just to hyper and nervous. We decided to go back and look a the Lab Diego again and asked to take him out for a walk this time.
I was able to control him on the leash and used some of the dog whispers training techniques and Diego did fine. I have really fallen in love with this dog and was in tears at the thought of not having him in my life. We put him on hold again and meet with behavior trainer on Wed and if everything goes right we should be bringing him home that afternoon. We went out and got him a bed, toys, treats and dog food on the way home, still have to get a leash and collar/harness to train him with before we pick him up. I am glad that I did not retreat into a depression and give up on him even though the women a the spca humane society keep talking about his negative traits. I need him and he needs me and I really think he will enrich my life. He is really a great dog. It has been quite a day today of pleasant activities and accomplishments. I am a little tired now but I am learning how to be a pack leader and it feels good.
I went down to the local animal shelter today and have put a 2 yr old Labrador Retriever named Diego on hold for me to adopt after I meet with the Behavioral animal trainer that did the assessment on him when he was taken into the shelter. I am excited about getting him and bringing him home. He is a beautiful and intelligent animal and well mannered. He does need to be trained to walk on a leash without pulling and they seem to think he has a obsession with his ball but gees he is a Retriever. I will have to wait and see what they say at the meeting on Jan 5. They require that I go to the meeting before I can adopt him. Well I guess I just have to wait and see if he is the dog for me. Well its midnight here and I need to try to get more sleep tonight. So off to bed I go.
I spent most of the day on line researching different types of dogs before I decide weather or not to get a pet.
Today,
Well, I will have to post later when I have something to post. Its three hours earlier here and I am still trying to get going and get motivated this morning, which I have to make myself do most morning. Didn't get enough sleep again last night. I am going to try to get more sleep tonight. That is going to be my major accomplishment for today if I can pull it off, so that I can feel better tomarrow.
I spent the morning playing with the casio piano my partner got me, yes I got one too for Xmas from my Santa Baby.
I went grocery shopping in the afternoon and also got some head phones for the piano so I can play any time I get the urge.
I got some walking in yesterday and felt much better getting out of the house for a while.
Today,
I had a relaxing morning. I am not sure what today will hold for me. I am going to do my best to make it a pleasant day. If
I do just that for today, I feel it will be a productive day and I will have accomplished my goal for today. Which is to love myself and be content and happy for today.
sounds great Red and the plans you've made on Boxing Day. I was as industrious yesterday and though I thought about plans didn't reach any conclusions.
Today I slept almost all day and watched Football (I love it) and talked on the computer.
Yesterday, I did visit friends I didn't get to see through Christmas. I did enjoy that.
