I play with pearls and beads of all kinds. Colours and shapes and sizes. To all hours of the night.
I have take to twisting copper wire around slices of agates and geode-slices to make pendantes as well and these are eye catchers!
I wear scarves.
Colours and materials with differents clips and pendants I have made. It is hiding and it is showing-off a mask. Different sizes and shapes, even a little one around a wrist like when we were young and punk is a lot of fun!
I remember the good I do!
This is really new! I have trying to think of all the times I help people and they have told me they have appreciated me. I then know I am not a callous lump dumping my problems on the first in my cross-hairs. I know that I am person like any other and I caught someone who is having a bad bad and is not coping well. Their solution to feeling better is bring others down. It is not my way and I Must not resort to these foreign tools, or I will lose myself in the spirals of the negative and the depressive.
I hug my children.
they have such a good energy. touching them and being close to them washes away the comtamination of the day.
It can be very difficult when those around you do not understand what you are experiencing.
And wouldn't it be great to have some sort of miracle pill to mask all of our problems? Unfortunately, until they invent one we just have to keep coping and doing whatever it takes to make us feel good about ourselves.
Wildcat, what do you do that makes you feel good about yourself?
wildcat, I can relate to what you are saying. I don't mind people knowing that I have depression, but let me alone. I am doing okay with it. I've learned to be more assertive and interrupt people and say, "thanks, I've got it under control for now". After all, I do or I wouldn't be at work to start with - right?!!!!!!! Alot of people don't like the way I dress. I'm about 30 lbs overweight right now but I like to dress in big clothes. I've never been more than 50 lbs overweight (I'll give credit to Lithium for that). I've always dressed in clothes that fit too big and everyone wants to tell me how great I look in skinny clothes. I'm not trying to sound vain, but I know it - I don't like tight fitting clothes, the way the they feel. So, I am learning to be more assertive and say Thanks, but I like the way I dress. ARGH!
Add that cream, energy drink or whatever we can brain storm to that list of things to do (after the book - I'm a bit selfish, I need the book). I think someone just told me in another post that I just read (can't remember who) that I am unique and beautiful and just because not everyone realizes it - well, look what they are missing out on - irregardless of whether or not I'm up or down! We have to learn to accept ourselves (my current problem) with whatever dx, but also those with personality issues that aren't diagnosed (like insensitivity or a**holes). and aren't there alot of those!!!! We are outnumbered. I think we need to learn to be more assertive with those folks (don't slap her silly) more assertive with words. Like interrupting the lecture and saying thanks and walking away. Or start lecturing her on something!!!!!! She ain't perfect.
If I hear of a miracle pill, I'll let you know. I'd rather invent a "mind your own business, deal with your own issues pill" .
I do not mind having people knowing I have and illness and some days are better than others. At work, within my family and friends.
I do mind when others compare what I have to deal with on a bad morning and the difficulties that everyone else has on the Monday trudge to work. I had a bleep early this week and when I when back to work ... i was not 100%. So good morning did not pass well! And when I said we will see how good it becomes i got the two minute lecture! I wanted to smack her!
anyways. When I am like that simply looking into my eyes and you can see the exhaustion and the discouragement. you can tell that i am hurt and sick. And smile and mask as much as I want, I cannot close my eyes. And poof the energy and the smile comes back and my eyes sparkle again.
A friend at work told me she was happy to have be back today! How to I allow this part of me to show less? Is there a acne cream ? eh bipolar cream? or an energy drink? or a miracle pill?
