I've been away for awhile because I just couldn't deal anymore. So I took a mini shut down. This is where I did things I had to do but not much of anything else. When I had "free" time I just played games on the computer. My husband was gone for the week so I felt no pressure to perform other than for my son. He's back now and I'm still having problems getting motivated.
I read some of the posts but didn't reply beccause my thoughts are scattered. Even now I feel like what I'm writing doesn't make much sense. Part of me doesn't care right now. I'm so tired of hurting and thinking. I just want a break from it all.
I hope you all are doing well. I, like Wildcat, wish for some stability but I'd like it to be on the positive side of things. Right now I'm in a stable depressive state. Able to function reasonably well, not over the edge and panicked, but not really caring too much about anything.
