One of the key components of keeping a quit is determination. I know that as time passes, the quit gets so much easier and the freedom is awesome. I have been quit for over a year and haven�t had any cravings for quite some time now.
And then there are days like today. Nothing has happened, no tragedies, no extra stressors popping up out of now where. I just have a sudden desire to smoke. I had a dream that I was hiding and smoking and that image keeps popping in my mind. For some reason, unknown to me, I want to fill my lungs with smoke today. I hate this crazy addiction. I have yet to have the 5 minute cravings that people profess to around here. This has been going on for over an hour now and isn�t letting up.
It is times like this that I hold on to my determination not to go back to the enslavement of smoking. I have fought too long and too hard to give up but I would not leave the house right now. Instead, I post. Just like the early days.
I have enough knowledge to know that I cannot have just one puff. I also have a junkie brain that tries to convince me that �no one would know�. I laugh at this thought now. I guess not all days will be good days.
Here I sit, gritting my teeth, taking deep breaths and hanging on to my determination not to give in to the horrible addiction.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 408
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,173
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1428
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 36 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 22 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26
