God bless you all. Thank you so much. I really didn't want to post and say what I had done, but it wouldn't have helped if I'd kept this to myself(which is what I really wanted to do). No, I need help and right now you guys are my lifeline. I will do this. Yes the beginning stages of the journey are scary, but like Phil said in a post, certainly not as scary as finding out you have cancer. It just has to be put into perspective. So yes, I will dust myself off, pick myself up, and start all over again. Stormy, MissyFit, Windy, Sparky and Lady. Thanks sooooo much. Love, Jan