Well, I cannot take SSRI's but I know Zoloft is an SSRI like paxil. People I know who have taken it got good results out of it. Of course all medications are personnal and everyone reacts differently. The best thing is to give it a try and talk to your doctor about how it makes you feel. I know it is scary tho...But hang in there, you can do it. Also, I bet others have first hand account of this med for you and will be along to let you know how it was for them.
-Diva
Thank you goofy and Mom of 3. I really appreciate your replies and your support it means a ton to me. When you drop in, even just to say you care, it means a ton and makes me feel so much less alone. I am going to post this without replying to other stuff for now as I am not feeling really up to being useful to anyone. So sorry for just dropping in and whining and venting lol. I will read other posts when I feel more up to it.
So here is what is up with me.
Hubby left. We fought. Over what? Over territory. He says I hog the t.v./ living room. I told him I have nowhere else to hang. He has the little bedroom / office. That room is his. I only go there when he wants company or to print things. I don't have that. I don't have a room. But still, since I am most often in the living room, since he has the office and plays there (video games) alot. He expects that he should be able to just commandeer the living room when he wants it. I couldn't commandeer the office whenever I want though...So yeah we fought over territory. Shocked neither of us peed in all four corners of the room...I told him I felt like I have nowhere, like if he throws me out of the living room I have nowhere...He figures he is the one who has nowhere and that he is stuck in the office and has nowhere to go. What a mess...
Anyway, not exactly sure how things went, it is all a blurr now...Anyway, he took his car keys and left. I asked him where he was going, he said:"I don't know.". I asked are you going to come home? He said: "Probably not, I don't know." I said ok well can you at least call me if you land somewhere for the night so I don't stay up all night worried you are in a ditch or somthing. He said:"...". Yup nothing at all, he just left. I told him to be careful. Asked him to call me once again. Again no answer. And he gets into his car and he just drives away, no goodbyes, no wave, no I will call you. Nothing. Not a word. And he is gone.
I don't know if he will be back. So for now I am up and I am waiting. I am sitting here holding one of his old t-shirts because it smells like him. I am here terrified something bad will happen to him as he drives around angry in the midlle of the night. Waiting.Waiting to see if he comes home. Waiting to see if he sleeps somehwere for the night, to see if he calls me, to see if he is safe. I just wait anxiously with my heart pounding...I had had a good day...had...
All of this because I wanrted to finish my stupid kiddie movie when he wanted the t.v...
Thanks for giving me something to think about. I always realized how much more stressed I was with not sleeping enough but had not considered the regular hours question so much. Thanks!
I am glad you started the program and that it helped you feel more optimistic. Finding this site was random for me as well and it changed my life. And I also felt that, hopeful when I read the first few pages. I knew I had found something good. And it was so worth working the proram! So please keep us posted!
My only advice is take it at your own pace. Take your time to understand before you move on. Congratulations on a great first step in starting the program :)
