Wow CM 23+ hours without electricity. With everything that is going on on top of it. And no PAs! Woohoo, congratulations. Way to go. That is a good reason to give yourself a big pat on the back.
This weekend I have birthday parties all weekend...I am not so good at parties, but it will make people happy so I will attend. Funny how these parties are in part for my birthday and yet I am doing it to please others. But I figure I can get through it and it will make my family and friends happy. So off I go!
How are you doing today hun? I am so sorry to hear you are going through so many tough things at the moment. Hang in there. I agree you should seek support from friends and family if at all possible. Help-lines like CM suggested are great help too. Please also remember that we are all here for you to help you through this so come write to us often :)
Ok, seems I am back in flooding you with words mode, sorry lol!
So hey guys!
Today, I got up way later then I wanted...But I decided to forgive myself lol. Acceptance is key. If you resist it persists. The big thing in my day today is that I have a Birthday party to attend to. It is a birthday for me and my brother-in-law. He and I have birthdays pretty close together and since we get along really well we often celebrate together. So tonight is our birthday party. I am not feeling up to it so much. I am not sure how many people will be there but usually there is a lot. So that freaks me out. I am not good with large groups. I must say though that his wife is one of my best friends and she knows about my anxiety and usually takes good care of me. She sits with me a bit apart from the group and chats with me and keeps me company. She is great. So that always help. And she is bound to be there since it is her house lol. The other thing that freaks me out is that they had stomach flu over at their house recently (Thursday, they were still sick). Now I am very vulnerable to stomach flu for some odd reason I don't get. So this is definitely bringing out my inner hypocondriac lol! But I will go and do my best to be sociable and nice. It will make people happy if I make the effort to attend. Plus, I can just go sit in a corner with my friend if I feel overhwelmed. And once I am too tired I can just go home happy that I went. So yeah, that is the plan. Thanks for letting me think out loud it helped!
And thank you also for the rest of your reply. You are right, it is not weakness or failure. Sometimes I really need to be reminded. Funny how I know that for others but not for myself. My therapist always says I am much harder and meaner with myself then with others lol. So thanks for the reminder .
My first party was exhausting but it went well! I think I did ok lol. Now, I have some work to do today, then I have another party. Part of me feels really anxious that I have so little time to rest and that I have a huge week coming up. But I am challenging my thoughts! So off I go to go do some work. I can worry about the second party when it comes to that lol!
I am glad you got support from friends! What a nice surprise they prepared for you. Your friends sound really nice! I am glad the Lion King was good. I so wnat to see that, that is such a great gift! And wow you did really great getting over your fear of heights and everything else. Kudos!
I am glad to see you are going to continue using the tools here and counting on youyr support group. We are also here for you!
I found eating small portions of easily digestable foods often is what helped me the most too. That and taking the time to breathe in between bites like Joe said!
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