This year I am working on reframing and staying in the present so that I can enjoy the holiday season... I have so much to be thankful for this year. I have someone who cares about me and that I care about to enjoy the holiday season with this year..
Thank you for sharing your holiday spirit with us this year...The two of you have created a lovely holiday table..Wish we were all there with you to share in the festivities and a nice pot of tea...
I get that lost fuzzy feeling to..I hadn't really thought about the why till now and after reading your post..It does come on when fatigued like you mentioned..Which is probably very common with a disability..This happened to me again yesterday while at the mall..The foggy detached feeling and extreme fatigue..So we came home so I could rest..
Like you I did have some anxiety going on most of my life but it did get worst after I became disabled after a back injury and later surgery..I now have osteoarthritis in my spine and neck which has been worsening since the onset at age 34..After my injury I felt more vulnerable..I was not able to do to the things I did before with ease and I was not able to protect myself like I could before the injury..Hence the fight or flight according to a Psych that pointed this out to me 20 yrs ago..This is about the time I noticed I was becoming agoraphobic..It wasn't until after my husband became sick with dementia and ptsd that I took a turn for the worse and after he passed the panic set in and was with me 24/7..I have to say that the program here has brought me out that state of mind and helped me get through to the other side which is much more peaceful..I rarely have panic now and am careful to not let myself become to fatigued..I remind myself thats is ok to rest when I need to and when I listen to myself and do this I am ok..This is something I need to let myself do more of...
I am glad we very able to meet here and share our life experiences with each other..We really are not alone in this..It is comforting knowing that there are others that have gone thought similar experiences and have come out the other side too..
This gives us hope and the stories we share encourage others to take that first step and come here and post and start working the program sessions..You are so right things can only get better from here on...
Thank you for reaching out to me and sharing your story with me here..I am wishing you a Happy Holiday and wonderful New Year too..
I think it was easier when families lived closer together..My mother lived to be 82 and my grandmother lived to be 92. They were surrounded by family up until the day they passed away..The both suffered with anxiety over lots of things but never panic...They had their family near by and their family was their whole life..They were never really alone..As for me my family was my whole life also and when I lost them or they moved away I lost myself and panic began to set in. The world has changed a lot since their time and the reality is that there are a lot of families that do not live near each other anymore. So as a consequence I think there are many of us out here that do not have the support of our families like our parents did..So I think it is very important that we have this group where we can come and share our experiences with other people..This way we can know that we are not the only ones trying to find our way in this new world we live in....We can lean on and support each other here. We are not alone in this new world we find ourselves trying to cope in...
I used to feel kind of let down after Christmas but not anymore..
The advertising for Christmas starts in the stores where I live before Halloween so by the time Christmas day comes I am pretty much relieved to see it go..I start off feeling excited about all the decorations and lights but as the seasons progresses I start suffering with mild depression. My extended family no longer exists so Christmas is not what it once was for me. This year my partner and I put that all aside and had a lovely Christmas day together and today I am looking forward to taking down the tree and starting a new year..
